With just a week to go before my first marathon last October, I wrote of my Marathon Mind because I really, really had to. It was the first time I wrote a post purely to vent. The hamster spinning that wheel inside my brain was just too hard to ignore- that sucker couldn’t, wouldn’t and didn’t stop: marathon, marathon, marathon, MARATHON!!! And now, with just 4 days to go until marathon #2, my hamster seems to also be tapering… nervousness and panic have now been replaced with confidence and excitement.
I believe I have finally achieved balance, a sort of a peace, about my marathon training and impending 26.2. Sure, my stomach still leaps into my chest and I feel the urge to pee every time I think about Sunday’s race but those feelings are, this time around, met with a steady mind- I have the right attitude and I am more than focused on my goal.
How do I know this? Well, mainly because this time around things are still getting done around the house! Yay me! Last time, my Marathon Mind seriously took over- I couldn’t cook, do laundry, make plans, talk or think about anything else other than the marathon. My life was on hold, waiting for that race. (I was a JOY to be around, I’m sure.) I’m still thinking about it a lot but not allowing it to completely debilitate me like before.
Luckily, my last month of training was amazing. All of my long runs were strong and my body feels great, the taper did exactly what it was supposed to and I feel primed and more than ready to go- I am so looking forward to seeing what I can do! I finally feel like I belong here. Self doubt squashed- I really am a runner.
Bring it on.
Since I’m flying to San Diego for the race, I’ve already started packing and that’s a load off my shoulders too. The more I can get done now, the more I can rest later this week, which should also calm my nerves. Unfortunately, I really hate flying but it’s a short trip so reassuring myself that I will not plummet to my death on this flight has been easy enough. (Reassuring myself that they will not lose my baggage, though, not so much- I am carrying on all of my running gear just to be safe and further ease any anxiety!)
I am constantly considering my eating and hydration and as something I always do, feels nice and comfortable. I’ve made a vow to myself to go high fruits and veggies and high complex carbs this week, eating very little animal proteins so that everything I eat is very easy to digest. I’m going to bed early, getting great sleep, and rolling that IT out as much as possible. (And not buying any wine at the store this week. I swear. Runner’s Honor.)
As my 5 year old son says, “Nerves fall away, let the happy stay!” Never was a truer statement.
It’s all a matter of time, will and determination- I did it before and I’ll definitely do it again on Sunday. WISH ME LUCK!!!!!
How about you? Do you suffer from super crazy runner’s mind before a big race? How much does it affect you? How do you ease your nerves and calm your mind?